Run Toward Change

Written by: Kirk

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You know what is terrifying and painful? Change. Why? It is inevitable. It is constant. Poets or great thinkers have always meditated on the subtle, never ending grind of time, that change happens to everything (beauty/appearance, love/relationship, mobility, erosion) and we are passive members of its effects. I, like many, got bogged down by these worries, but that thinking got me nowhere and left me depressed and stagnant.

I recently stepped away from a well-paying job. I used to fulfill my 8-5 requirement while finding every opportunity to distract myself from the fact that I was not happy. I am now uncertain of my long-term earnings in the part-time transition job I have taken, yet somehow my mind is clear and all I want to do is focus my energy on changing my life and my family's even further. It’s strange that I used to be terrified of losing status and the "lifestyle" we had earned (and being unable to get my daily $5 fair-trade mocha latte made by an over-educated barista.) I now find myself at peace and feel I have greater control of myself and my family's destiny more than ever before. Time may still be grinding me down, but I will stay ahead of it by being the change.


 I will not know my exact path for the next 3-10 years and beyond, but dedicating my life to my passion, while running toward fear and pain will create lasting happiness and fulfillment.

Over the last year, I started to think of change differently. Instead of being passive and allowing life/change to happen to me while dumping resources into softening the blow (self-medicating, trying to buy happiness in the things I acquire, watching endless “fails of the week” videos on Youtube), I chose to become an active member of change. Pushing each week, month, year to be different and move in a direction based on my deep longings. Embracing that I won’t be able to punch in and punch out of a job I despise for the rest of my life. Knowing that I will not know my exact path for the next 3-10 years and beyond, but dedicating my life to my passion, while running toward fear and pain will create lasting happiness and fulfillment. Change can be happening to you, or you can be changing. Run toward it. I do not know what my destination or yours will be, but following the deep longing of our individual spirits will allow us to be the change and a positive force in this world.

What big changes are you moving toward in your life? Comment below.